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My Journey has led me to myself, feeling comfortable in my androgynous non-binary body. With that comes a Feeling of being at ease with my essence that is an ocean mixture of swirling divine masculine, feminine and non-gendered non-binary energies that ebbs and flows in different configurations, all uniQuely me, even in their differences and some time perceived conflictions. As we realize that two concepts that may seem contrary to each other in this binary world, Really can exist Simultaneously within  us.

 

My journey took many years, growing up feeling like a misunderstood boy forced to play a role. I felt and lined up naturally with the boys and they all accepted that in my class for a few years. As a 3-6 year old, innately sensing who I am and where I align with the other children was easy, It was the Adults opinion of where I needed to be that was the challenge, as the kids accepted my differences and just as It was clear they understood their gender and where they belonged and I also watched them witness my struggle and understood its validity. But the older we became, the trying to fit in where there was no real category for me, became more difficult.

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I did have gender dysphoria but it didn't fit in to what I wanted for myself in society and what I was told was possible. I had a rough puberty, but eventually got myself together for high school, did my best to live with my circumstances, stuffed parts of my authentic self and created masks of girl-ness by mimicking friend's  behaviors to fit in and survive my girl teenage-hood in a religious environment. But I always stoodout.

 

So I was a trailblazer while growing up in a small, rural, Southern Baptist, Texas town outside of Houston. I helped forward women's rights, including applying for title IX equal sports women's soccer team for my high school. In college my heart led to me coming out and I loved being a lesbian and having a community where I finally felt at home, as it was huge gain to finally understand some of my Variants but it didn't solve everything that was inside of me, so I kept Exploring.

 

It took many years and courage choose to love myself and take the journey to Me. By making the 10,000 small authentic decisions that led to me face-to-face- with my full-self. 

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I am excited to share with you that once I really aligned with Me and My Truth.... then another Journey started, but this time a Growth & Expansion Journey.

 

After meditating a lot, a common message kept surfacing in my consciousness to grow my femineity, to grow into a whole androgenous being that could hold all divinity of genders. I have found it fascinating and somewhat ironic that in accepting my true state of masculinity, it was then that I could hold a container for allowing my femineity to have a safe space to slowly naturally develop. Now, I feel balanced and I am so grateful to not have limited myself.

 

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Liberate Yourself from the box that you were forced to play in society.  Boxes and Labels are only good up to a point, but then need to be set aside for growth, authenticity and expansion.

 

Releasing control and viewing things from a different perspective,  is the easiest way to true happiness.  Authenticity springs from the  heart, thus integrating heart with will, emotions and actions, supports you in true expression. This combination sets your soul's purpose into motion here on this Earth.

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Wondering if what parts of transition are right for you can be a difficult and confusing process, especially when coming out after being steeped in numerous layers of social expectations- such as coming out at an older age, or in a conservative area, or small town.

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Realize that the physical part is only a small portion compared to the entire inner journey of breaking out of social constructs and religious overtones, gendered roles and cis-heteronormative structures- this is an Inside job. 

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As much as I wanted to run towards the finish line (that was laid in all the "helpful structures" of society's benchmark of success *such as passing) so that my Happiness could begin...  I had an spiritual epiphany and deep guidance to go at a  slower pace to find Authentic truth in each and every choice and decision. And then to guide others to do the same. 

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It's like one of those iceberg pictures where you see a tiny bit of it sticking out of the water but the real, entire iceberg is gigantic, unseen underneath the water. Well, that's the Internal you, and its Multifaceted, complex, layered and BEAUTIFUL.

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It took patience, strength, and courage to not rush it, because if you plow forward, you end up not catching the very Breath that you are Seeking. I found is that bypassing always catches up to you and mental and emotional  and spiritual challenges can and do surface.  

 

Recently, I have seen a trend of folks rushing to endpoint of medical transition without understanding if that is truly your journey to take. I have watched many in my community shoot far passed what's authentic for them, by being too fixated on a "sparkly fantasy goal-line that will magically fix their whole lives"  is too prevalent of a social message in current times. Then I watch these folks, after a few more years of more struggle by telling themself all should be well and to focus on your Pride (!) hit a wall finding themselves still unhappy and have to re-evaluate themself again, hopefully this time from their Heart center. But then they have to contend with possible unwanted side-effects or irreversible procedures.

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Its best to go authentically slow, let yourself unfurrow naturally and get to know yourself deeply with love.

 

So if you are feeling confused, stuck, not sure what your next step should be, please contact me. I understand the journey of self exploration, and  I want to help guide you through it. Together we will lay out your goals and find actions to get the improvements you desire. 

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